Saturday, December 15, 2012

Surgery day is FINALLY here…


The night before surgery, I had my bag packed, details all taken care of, nerves somewhat in check and had done all of the preparations required for the surgery.  I was very lucky to have a houseful of visitors the night before surgery.  This gave me wonderful time to socialize with friends, and it had the unintended consequence of keeping me from stressing too much about the next day.

Once the house settled down, Melissa, David and I chatted for a while and then decided to watch TV.  I couldn’t believe it, but I actually fell asleep on the couch.  For those of you that know me, I NEVER fall asleep on the couch.  I have terrible insomnia and can’t even sleep normally at night.  Even when I made it up to bed, I slept until about 4am, which is unheard of for me, and 10 minutes before my alarm was set to go off.

I got up, showered and shaved (who knew how long it would be before I could do that again), took my required meds and got the last few things together.  I cuddled and picked up Dixie, knowing I wouldn’t be able to pick her up for 6 weeks after the surgery!  We left the house at 6am sharp and got to VCU right on time.  My surgery wasn’t scheduled until 10am, but they wanted us there at 6!  (In case the surgery before mine didn’t show up).  This meant there was a lot of waiting.  They finally called me back to my room about 8, and started to get me hooked up.  I was dehydrated, so it took 5 tries to finally get an IV started.  All else went well, and we just continued to wait.

My Dad and DeAnn arrived about 9am, and it was nice to be surrounded by so many supportive people. The waiting was the hard part.  At this point in the process, I was ready to get the show on the road. The doctor then came to inform me there was a delay in the previous surgery and it would be at least another hour before they could take me. 

During this time, the anesthesiologist came into the room and explained the process, including an epidural and general anesthesia to control the pain.  At about 10:30, I said goodbye to my family and the doctors were going to prep me with the epidural and get ready for surgery.  It took several tries and they could not get the epidural right.  In the midst of the epidural issue, one of the doctors, trying to help, mentioned to me that if I decide to have children in the future, I might want to let the doctors know that it is difficult to get an epidural in me.  I just kind of looked at her. I thought..ummm, I’m here for a hysterectomy…I won’t be here to have a child in the future!  I’m sure she wasn’t thinking and she meant no harm at all, but it did catch me off guard a bit.  After several tries, they called the attending physician who seemed to get it. However, he administered the medication and it didn’t seem to be working properly.  About this time, they started to give me the sleepy meds for the OR.  I last looked at the clock at 12:00pm on the nose. 

When I woke up, all I could feel was EXCRUCIATING pain, like none other. I was crying, screaming and miserable.  Someone explained to me that the epidural did not work, and they were working to try and control my pain.  Needless to say, it was not under control and I was miserable.  I couldn’t stop whimpering and crying and praying for relief.  I wasn’t able to see my family until I got up to my room.

The only good news in this process is I was able to have my own room, which was a Godsend!  I hate having to share a hospital room, for so many reasons.  It’s hard to be considerate of someone else, and what if they don’t care about being considerate about you.  So, through my pain, I was thankful for that!

My family was really concerned about my pain level and kept trying to advocate for me.  The medical staff was concerned about giving too much pain medication, due to the fact that I just woke up from surgery and they wanted to be able to keep my vitals strong.  Over the course of the night, the pain did get better, but it was a MISERABLE night to say the least.

One great piece of news that I do remember, is that the doctors told us that the cancer was contained to the uterus and uterine wall.  They only had to remove the uterus and cervix, and were able to leave the ovaries and fallopian tubes.  We have to wait 2 weeks for pathology results, but their initial prognosis is that I will likely not need radiation or chemo, which is AWESOME news.

The stay in the hospital was uncomfortable, but I had good nurses and staff.  The pain was miserable, but that was to be expected. I felt very confident in my surgical staff and they checked on my regularly, even over the weekend. I was SO blessed to have so many family and friends come and visit, bring gifts and send gifts.  I felt so much love from all over the place and it no doubt helped me heal faster!  The flowers, balloons, gift baskets, bears, and other goodies, filled my heart and my hospital room. They needed an extra cart to get it all to the car when I was discharged!  Thank you to all who called came to see me and some of you drove great distances. I am very touched and blessed.  I progressed well at the hospital and was able to be discharged a day early, and went home Monday evening, instead of Tuesday.  There are certain “milestones” that you have to pass to show your body is ready to function normally at home.  As I hit those, the doctors gave me the option of going home Monday or Tuesday. They couldn’t get me out of the door fast enough.  I was ready to go home!

I was sent home with a slew of medications, pain pills, ibuprofen, iron, stool softener, blood thinner injections, and other vitamins, all of which I am taking as scheduled!  I am using my breathing treatments as needed to prevent pneumonia, and am moving around as ordered to keep blood flow moving to my extremities.

Being home is wonderful.  There is something healing about being in your own house, with your family, and my wonderful doggie.  She was so sweet and remained fairly calm. It was almost as if she knew she needed to be careful with me.  She snuggled with me and kept me feeling loved.  David took great care of me, and continues to do so.  Friends and family continue to call and text regularly. Wonderful friends have brought us food so we don’t have to cook. My work sent a lovely basket with gift cards, for nights we don’t have to cook.  My cup runneth over, and I don’t know what I did to deserve so much love and so many blessings, but I appreciate them all.

For now, the physical healing gets a little better each day.  I am working some from home, as I am able.  I am still in pain and working around it as I am able.  I am trying to take it easy, but that is difficult for me sometimes J.  The emotional side of the surgery is starting to sink in and is harder than I anticipated it to be.  

I have scheduled an appointment with the oncologist psychiatrist to speak with her about my process, which I think will only help in my recovery.  It has been two weeks since my surgery.  I am moving around pretty well, can do most things on my own…though I am NOT lifting anything over 5lbs…doctor’s orders for 6 weeks. 

I am sure I missed some details about the surgery, but you get the general idea, it went smoothly.  There are always a few hiccups, but overall, all went well, and we are on the recovery side of the process.  We are hopeful that there will be no radiation or chemotherapy necessary.  I will keep you posted!  Much love to you all!

3 comments:

  1. My epidural for my first childbirth did not work very well and I was miserable for hours. I cannot IMAGINE what waking up to terrible pain would be like. Plus, epidurals HURT to insert in in the first place. I can't believe they kept sticking you.

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  2. It's astounding to me how often things don't quite as planned in preparation for surgery. I'm sorry that you had to endure all of that poking, prodding, and pain. But I am really, really glad to hear that the initial news is positive in terms of no radiation or chemotherapy, and I'll be thinking positive thoughts that remains the case! It's also wonderful that you had friends and family around before and after the surgery. I know how that can mean the world to have that support. It certainly did to me when you stuck around in the hospital for me back in 2000. Love ya, Erika! ~Mike

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  3. Thanks Janelle. It's nice to know I'm not the only one with epidural issues! I apprecaite you keeping up with my blog! I hope that you and the family are doing well.

    Mike, I will always remember that night at Radford with your surgery. It was scary, and I definitely wanted to be there with you. I wouldn't want you be alone in a strange place. I'm glad that it was helpful for you. Friends always do for each other! Love ya too, and I hope we can reconnect soon!

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